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a real friend is not someone with whos antics you always have to put up with and they never do that with yours... but someone who sticks to you through thick and thin, puts up with your antics as much as you put up with theirs
after all these years of me being such an ass, my best friend still listens to what i have to say and tells me that she loves me.
i have done her so wrong.. best friends dont have to listen to the same music as you do, they dont have to like the same stuff.. they just have to like you for who you are. they have to be able to make you laugh and make you feel comfortable. they should be able chase you, when you are pretty much running away from them.
she has done all that and much more and i have been so blind and thought, that other people who share same interrests with me were my best friends.
those are gone cause they didnt really care and she is still there for me... and i am sick of chasing after you, my other person! you would never do that if i was you and in your situation. your not existing actions speak louder than your lame excuses.
i am not done with you because i am a good friend, but i am sad and hurt and i need to vent.. but i will still be there when you need me. i will come over to your place in the middle of the night when something went wrong again. i will not confront you directly, because i know you dont need that. you yourself have to realize what you have to do, to make your life better again. i can't make decisions for you, although the thoughts about doing just that are pretty much spinning in circles in my head for so long now. but it's your life and not mine (although your life IS affecting mine pretty badly)...
i'll be a good friend, keep my mouth shut and appreciate my best friend a whole lot more than i did those past 3 years..
maybe you my dear friend will realise one day how wrong you have been, just like i did today.
ich hab dich lieb marlen.
best friends take pictures of you, jumping from poles ;)
 
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| Need to know! |
[10 Nov 2009|05:42pm] |
Poll #1483696 Bedtime
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 79What do you wear to bed most of the time?
Thanks Guys!
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| learning to let go |
[09 Nov 2009|08:40pm] |
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I've learned a lot today or maybe I've realized a lot. Like life is too short to spend too much time on the past. I've spent too much time reflecting on my past and I've been holding on to all the pain and emotions associated with all the memories. Looking back and analyzing how could anybody want to say goodbye to a friend after three years. I've realized holding onto all that pain and emotions is holding me back from being happy and living my life. I guess you have to hold on to those memories or emotions until you're strong enough to let go. Ive been holding on for so long that I think I didn't know how to let go or I didn't think I could. Now I know I can let go because everything I've been analyzing and looking back isn't something that is going to change. I didn't make that decision. Its not on me, its on him. So I don't have to spend my time looking back at what went wrong or why because he made that decision for me.
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| Maid Marian Braids |
[09 Nov 2009|07:24pm] |
This is a traditional milkmaid braid style but doubled up - so there's 4 braids instead of two. FANCY-ER! :D
I'm not sure what people call them besides a double milkmaid but I like to call them Maid Marian Braids! All you do is part your hair in half, then half again, then braid each part and wrap them across your head using bobby pins to secure them in place. It's just like the normal milkmaid braid tutorial I did awhile back except that it's doubled up.
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[07 Nov 2009|02:55pm] |
I played around in Illustrator yesterday... and I made this! Afterwards I was like... wow... this looks like something ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sickforcute aka Lindsey of Kid Pirate would do!
And wtfh. Photobucket totally fucked up the colors. Like hard. I have no idea why... but the blue was darker and the pink was darker... not so neony burning eyes like. But the light pink is the right color.
Still. Im proud of myself.
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